hey, darlin :D this is the first time i’ve been on tumblr in almost two weeks, tbh. im so sorry to all of you!! yeah, life is insanity right now. i know i don’t talk about rl stuff here much, but i’ll clue you all in a bit so you know why i’ve been missing for huge chunks of time (and why i probably will continue to for at least a couple more weeks). first, my day job ramps up at the end of the year. big time ramps up. like i barely have time to breathe. second, my second job of publishing is stripping me bare right now. i have two books coming out this month. so im working on final edits and promo for those. additionally, i have a five book series contracted and i just finished writing the third book and that one took a lot out of me emotionally. kind of left me wrecked for a while, to be blunt. and now i have to gear myself up to finish the fourth one on a tight deadline. third, i’ve had some major health stuff i’ve been dealing with on top of all of this. so, yeah, overwhelmed just begins to scratch the surface.
but now im coming off as a whiny bitch, and that’s soooo not what im going for. i know there are so many of you out there that are going through stresses that are equally as great, if not hella nightmarish more than this. that’s why i havent devoted any blog space to telling you why im so quiet lately. but, at the same time, i think you all deserve an answer now.
i havent abandoned ziam or 1D. i love them just as much, fuck probably more. sometimes reading everyone’s fics or seeing them—like on snl this weekend—is the one time i smile that day. im not leaving this blog, but im also aware im the worst ziam blogger out there currently!!!!!!!!!!! i have WWG to finish (and it fucking WILL be finished, don’t worry for a second about that) and two masterposts sitting in my drafts that need a good solid four hours of time to be finished before i can post.
anyway, words cannot express how much i do miss you all. my lovely ziam family!!! you all are amazing. such beautiful, kind, creative people. and i love you so much for not defriending me en mass when im missing in action. i’ll be back, k? i promise. just give me a bit. and in the meantime, i’ll still stop by to say hi and post when i can. the queue will keep running. it’s stocked for at least a month LOL. i love you!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 xx